When I look at what has happened..i can say that what had taken place was nothing out of the norm..nothing I wouldn’t normally do..but yet..i suffer the consequences of “what I do” when others perceive as something extraordinary..

I’ve grown always with the heart to go “big or go home..” And I TRY my best to do everything in that capacity..the reason why I do is not primarily for myself which serves its benefits..but to give everyone a clear idea about where and what I stand for..

When I’m put in a position where the desire is to go big..but there are limitations to keeping me from going big..i put things on pause and just wait for the limitations to lift or wait to be properly equipped by God..

But I’ll take it..i guess I did have it coming..although I really had no room to act on this..don’t get me wrong..i wanted to..but we know that it wasn’t my place..atleast not yet..

You might wonder..don’t you care what ppl think?. I’ve gone over this..i really don’t..no matter where you go and what you do..ppl will talk..but it’s up to you how to react to it..How am I to react to it?. It’s not my place to..

Aren’t you going to defend yourself?. Why? To prove what?.either way..your opinion stands..you’ve chosen to let what you hear and what ppl say affect you..

I’m still here..exactly where you let what others affect you..

Did God..therefore..not equip me?.no..he did long time ago..it is said..before you ask God to teach you to be patient..know what you are really asking for..God will teach you patience with trials..along with the trials that I’ve faced..patience was more than what I learned..but knowing that waiting on God’s timing would reveal a greater blessing in itself..and that’s the understanding that my life isn’t my own..whether during the easy moments to the moments where I find my face to the ground..God will get his glory that only he deserve..

Now..the hardest part in all this is also the blessing..discovering what God is trying to teach me through all this..

Psalms 119:71 It is good for me that I have been afflicted; that I might learn thy statutes.

To those who stayed with me through it all..thanks..

To those who didn’t..thank you also..you just made your leaving less painful if you stuck around longer..but I’ll also say this..you know where I stand..and if you think you can accept me one day for what I am..you’re always welcome back..