“It is kind of fun doing the impossible.” - Walt Disney ESP when everyone doubts you and very minimal to no support from the closest ones to you. But I guess, this is how it is when you do something different from everyone’s norm. It does hurt at times, but I have to realize that at the end of the they, don’t pay my bills, nor can promise me that they’ll take care of me (I wouldn’t want that either). I wasn’t being a snob, and i am not saying I am better, but I can’t balance my future, nor the future of the family I wish to have, on what my loved ones think of me. I’ve attempted to help them at least see and understand what it is I am doing. Some wouldn’t even give me the time nor day just to hear me out, others would think I’m crazy for my decision. I’m thankful for the ones who show love and support regardless the understanding. I’d love it that they all be involved. It makes me wonder at times whether they even really cared. I’ve arranged bonfires, parties, get togethers, road trips, etc., getting sometimes 30, 40, to 50+ people to these events. Then once something serious for me comes along, just to hear me out, nothing. Was it just for the “good times”? We are older now, and the future is becoming more real than ever. To be Naïve to what the future MAY hold is suicide. “It is better to plan and fail than fail to try.” At times, I feel, many already feel the uncertainty of what’s ahead, but would rather not know and drown the anxiety in social gatherings. I understand, I was the same way. I would drown the stagnation my life by getting people together and find satisfaction in that. Then it hit me, the future is coming whether I like it or not. If you know me, I wasn’t into politics and the current economic state. My attitude was always, “it is what it is,” thinking I had no power for what’s ahead. Then those around me in whom I loved and admired for their wealth started hurting. Something i thought was impossible to happen to them. I began reflecting on my future, considered several options typical to most to do; accept my current situation and sit there until the wave hits me, then figure it out from there; join the military and hope they take care of me (then they cut back on recruiting and those retiring are suffering still); go back to school with a student loan around my neck hoping that I will get a job that will pay that loan off (while those that graduated now are stuck with their student loan with massive interest rates and STILL can’t get a job); stay at my current job in which I live paycheck to paycheck, and cross my fingers and hope to just make it.

I was comfortable with any of those options just hoping one day, one would make sense than the other. You see, to be frank with you, in life you have 3 options. (Pessimist: cup half empty. Optimist: cup half full. Realist: i got a freakin cup with water whether empty or full, I’m doing something with it and I’m gonna get a bigger container while everyone is ok with their cup.) There is nothing wrong with that.

I’ve been challenged in my personal life so many times as well as anyone has. I’m the type to always “Go BIG or Go HOME.” The learning experience that way is far more accurate than found mediocre with your choices. There are too many life variables to play with when you go that way, but that’s just my opinion. My heart has been broken many times for many reasons with different kinds of relationships, whether family, friend, God, and girl. I’ve turned my back on God and was completely miserable. Then, came back and was at peace. I learned never to do that again. Then, life happens, I cling closer to God, so much easier, but I left it all to him. Great things came my way then failed because of my inaction, persay. Then hurt again, still unclear as to why and what had happened, but I felt that I was misjudged and betrayed by someone who had claimed to say he’s better than me. This was not the first instance in my life where this had happened, but this the one that set it off. I made a choice in my life that I was gonna be the best in anything and everything that I do. I will no longer be naïve to being ok with what I was. I then began developed a relationship with God and realized my value in His eyes. I clung to that, educated myself and compared today’s struggling situations and didn’t want to be a part of it. Along with that, I decided, i will no longer be somebody someone compares to as to being the negative side of that spectrum. Began studying great leaders of the people who contributed and made a massive dent in history during the first depression. Learning their mindset and doing what was deemed impossible at the time, in which we have the luxury to enjoy those benefits today. Many of them took the “secrets” of God’s word in the literal sense and applied it in their life completely revolutionizing their future and generations to come. I then started applying the kind of faith they had and required to have to take action towards my development. Greater things began coming my way that opened more opportunity, more learning, more application in my life. My growth and development began to grow more than I ever thought. I refuse to be second place! I refuse to be an option! I chose to help others, but many choose to pity themselves and not improve and I have chosen to walk away from people and behaviors that don’t contribute to my growth. I’ve learned taking action and to stop crying and pitying myself and to do something about it. That’s what faith is. “Faith is an expression of gratitude between you and your Creator.”

I can choose to not do anything. I can choose to be second place. I can choose to not be the best. I can choose to be like the rest. BUT I choose to change my reality like few have during the Great Depression. Life has patterns, ride the patterns and waves that have served history’s champions. Now, in this recession, we are worse off than those in the depression. People then were just broke. People now think they aren’t broke because they have a credit score. Reality is, someone owns your wealth and not yourself. The wealthy describe wealth as not being how much you can spend, but its how much you save that determines your value. People now aren’t just broke, they owe money. As a society, we were taught to live on credit is good, it has its perks, but if you owe more than you save… well, you decide.

I’m opening a business tomorrow that seems unconventional these days teach people the importance of making, saving, securing, and protecting your wealth. Back to the financial basics in which most were forced to be led astray by without knowing.

If I am alone in this, than I am. I only need those who value what I can share, than to be with those who remain naïve to their cause.

I am all over the place with my thoughts. I hope you all kept up if you read this.

Sometimes I wonder.. How do you define a friend?. I mean a real friend.. Cuz you have those friends who are only there when the conditions are right.. More like.. It makes you ask.. “do you only care because of what I do..or can do for you?.”

And there are those friends who are there for you only when you are down in the dumps.. And leaves you with another question.. “do you feel obligated to just be there for me because things are obviously rough?”

Then finally.. You have those friends who are constantly there with you no matter what.. Whether good..or bad.. Whether you have something or nothing to give but only yourself.. And you are left with no question about them..

Evaluate what your friends really are.. Evaluate the kind of friend you are.. And hang on to those that matter to you most..because when things get rough in your life.. That friend may just be the only thing you have..

Jesus is a faithful friend..